2012 My year in song…..

So 2012 was quite a year!! A year of pain, struggles, grief, enlightenment, personal growth, empowerment and self acceptance! I’ve decided to go through this journey by using songs that I clung to in my darkest times and the times of rising above and beyond myself. In order to see the bigger picture!

I hope it encourages at least 1 person to know that they are not alone!

Broken and defeated:
who knew

outta my mind

Worn

Jesus Take the Wheel

Encouraged:
I may bend, but never break!

Stand in the Rain

A place of refuge:

put on your headphones

Strong Enough

The words I would say

A time for perspective:
what drives me crazy

The words I would say

You are

Time for a change:

don’t wanna go through the motions

You are more

Remind me who I am

Encouragement:
don’t give up

there will come a day

He Said

Your love never fails

Surrender:

Mess of Me

I surrender

Surrender

Learning to forgive: (this one hurt)!
forgiveness

Losing

Awakening: (it’s going to be ok)

I wanna live like that

gotta get outta here

Never Alone

Comfortable in my own Skin:

Hey Hey

Outcast

Perfect

Stronger

To be continued…..

Seasoned with tears.

Today was just one of those days when it seemed as though everything that could, went wrong. I was about 1 minute late to my daughters award ceremony, hence missing her receiving her award. Obviously I felt HORRIBLE! And as if that wasn’t enough, she pulled the teen “I’m so disappointed” routine! Oh yeah…..you know the one! The one that involves the entire world revolving around how they feel and not giving 1 thought to how we may be feeling.

So tonight in the midst of our usual extreme chaos, my 3 year olds spaghetti was salted with tears.

Funny enough my 10 year old son, who never has any empathy for anything he has done to upset me, saw me upset and started sobbing. As sweet as it was, the last thing I needed right then was 1 more crying kid in my house!
My husband came home and disappeared upstairs for at least 30 minutes….must be soooooo nice right? I mean, I would kill for a 5 minute break! Hence my locking the door when I go to the bathroom. Let alone 30 minutes alone! As I type my youngest is spinning in circles as fast as she physically can, my 4 year old is singing and my 2 big kids have gone to their rooms. I’m physically sick over the way my teen is over-reacting! Not to mention how upset I am as it is about missing her award :o(

And for the record, had she not shown me a Pinterest picture of how she wanted her hair….and then got really mad that I didn’t do it the same way it showed in the picture, I wouldn’t have been late. UGH! Being a mom kind of just sucks sometimes! There I said it! You know you all were thinking it!

Until next time…..Laugh or Die Trying!
Sincerely,
The doormat of the day!

You are NOT Alone……What a concept right?

puzzle mdI’m not really sure how else to put it. But for years I felt as though I was the only mom on the planet experiencing what I go through with my children on a daily basis. Well PRAISE THE LORD I have discovered that: A: not only am I not alone, But that, B: There are more moms that feel alone than I care to mention. So…Get your jammies on…..It’s time for a Good Old fashioned Pajama Party!

Welcome to my Crazy Life, My Sensory Circus, My Calling.

Buckle your seatbelts and prepare for take-off! I hope you enjoy the ride!